다시 되돌릴 수 있다면 If we can go to the past

2010-09-13T00:48:00.003+08:00

he loves u so much, u gotta treasure him.

nt $$ spent, but the things he do, he's a rare gem

there is nt gonna be a replacement for him.

well, u make me wonder, are good looking human beings meant to be kept? lolz

2010-09-08T00:15:00.004+08:00

last day of 7th mth, i gt reminded of my june 7 09 blog post. one day after june 6

again, tears behind a smile, in front of u.

yog shagging me out~!

2010-08-24T00:22:00.002+08:00

woah sounds wrong, shagging? like hell ya, literally! is like so many ppl involved, lack of manpower here n there and it shags me out!

n i am blogging now becuz i am shittingly bored.

b-o-o-r-e-e-d-d-d!

2010-08-12T22:50:00.002+08:00

my bro's pre-wedding photoshoot

kinda cool manz.. it does makes one want to settle down and marry but of coz with a pocket full of gold. it costs a bomb! literally.. if onli i am half as successful as him.

quote of the day : "i believe one day u will be tired of running away"

lolz, i might, if YOU are the right one NOT....lolz

2010-07-27T00:25:00.002+08:00

rise and shine, time for sch again

thoery after prac after tests..

w/o projects =P

wonder can i continue to defer my NS for my degree XD

2010-07-16T00:44:00.004+08:00

removed =)

2010-07-06T00:17:00.001+08:00

experience is just a nicer way of saying i made a mistake la.. lolz

2010-06-29T00:29:00.002+08:00

a rather decent pic of her i must say, but nice song thou

2010-06-21T00:54:00.003+08:00

this show is a lesson learnt..

sort of the reminded me of things

by the way, i came to u as a fren nt some lover, dun push ur luck

2010-06-16T23:57:00.003+08:00

"teardrop on my guitar"

so the awkward hearing tt song when we both stepped into the shop.

and of coz i remb tt song. the song u sent me tt time lo. and yes i knw wad r the lyrics. i knw wad u r trying to tell me all tt time.. but so awkward n sry, no

anyway, i want to own an ukelele -_-

2010-06-13T02:24:00.002+08:00

i bought a box of croissants after the IT fair just nw and i was eating and walking when i saw this old man selling tissues at the side of the MRT escalator. I gave him $5 and walked away. After a while, i turned back and gave him my box of croissants

2010-06-09T00:55:00.002+08:00

i adore u..

why isnt love the word?

is just somehow and somewhat that the word doesnt seems appropriate

2010-06-01T01:22:00.002+08:00

crossfit's fitness regime is a killer

try it @ www.crossfit.com for a week and u will see a diff haha

2010-05-20T23:33:00.004+08:00

cabi song's MV is out

hot SNSD n 2PM..

the middle part seriously reminds me of my underwater training tt time, all tt competitive swims,running, diving and party~

even tt stupid whistle sound haha

minus the pretty gals of coz

2010-05-19T00:37:00.002+08:00

and then came a day, both parted, it shows that it's isnt meant to be. so wad's the use of holding on something tt can be lost so easily..

never tot i will say this but to fall in love is awfully simple but to fall out of love is simply awful. Ouch

2010-05-18T01:37:00.001+08:00

sometimes, i wonder if it's because i am bored, curious or ego.. oh well, is none. i am just lazy to reply so u win..

2010-05-13T00:05:00.003+08:00

why guitar so hard to learn?

my pinky not the pain -_- haha

Everybody's lookin' for love, Aint that the reason you're at this club
-in my head, jason derulo

2010-05-11T01:19:00.002+08:00

just now went back to NP meet wanqi for dinner, haha the place changed alot sia, including the HS block. amazed~

today stay out, tml stay out, wed i off, thur stay in, fri stay in.. haha

and i gg to attend a 2 weeks course @ NYP. haha too bad is isnt NP whereby i more familiarized with the place

2010-05-02T03:05:00.001+08:00

u are always really u

2010-04-24T01:13:00.003+08:00

why bother talking to A about B when A dun care? LOLX

side topic

people have doesnt mean u shd have
u do not need to go in details into comparison
the more u shdnt come up to me and tell me about the comparison
the more u shdnt ask me for advice when u just want to prove me wrong
being stubborn doesnt solve anything
life is never fair,my boy
and i didnt suck anyone to get what i got

jealously boost up competition sia

and i hate competition =D

2010-04-16T22:52:00.002+08:00

away from tml(sat) until next fri night/sat Am~ Bb

2010-04-16T01:09:00.002+08:00

haha i could actually consider signing on given my posting now sia. really very very tempting!!

1)gd $$
2)nice uniform
3)job scope gd
4)very specialized

y nt?

anyway mad tv!

2010-04-13T23:35:00.002+08:00

ok fine, one day i will really have a birthday celebration on a yacht.. haha!

and since i was borned in '88, i shall make it my 88th birthday celebration!!

and everyone who wishes me here there fb everywhere, are all invited on 2076!!

children, grand children, great grand children are all invited too..

see u then~

2010-04-12T23:08:00.003+08:00

judgement day on wed, lets see where i get posted to this time round *spin the wheel*

my guess is high chance SNB ba..

who wanna go swimming this sat???? LOLX

anyway are u gay? i dun wish so.. u r a indo-chinese~!! omg.. suddenly gt fetish for indo-chinese..

2010-04-08T23:49:00.004+08:00

hoho hell day finally over,

80kg mannequin = 8000kg mannequin

gonna slp like a pig liao

home sweet bed

since i nv slp, i abit cranky nw.. haha

i knw u MP, i knw u like ur vocation, and ur job is to catch NS personnel, but i converted over to navy liao~ haha!! booo~

2010-03-28T18:36:00.002+08:00

just another pretty face tt is..

like i said b4, looks isnt necessary everything, if so, why r there so many models out there competing for assignments? and we arent toking bout heights now, look, becuz sometimes tt just doesnt matter, does it? XD

make up works wonder u knw

tts pt 1

pt 2 is yupz i neither that tall nor am i good looking.. so maybe tts y i am typing this? LOLX

but i am happy, i'm contented, to me that is very important

are u?

just a random post btw.. =P

2010-03-21T03:43:00.002+08:00

renting the lvl 9 YMCA rooftop pool deck nt the expensive -_-

2010-03-21T03:23:00.002+08:00

u knw, for a moment i was happy that u found someone to be happy with, nv did i knew he is so silly to let go of u

love indeed starts with a smile, strengthens with a kiss and ends with a tear

2010-03-13T02:06:00.003+08:00

going out every night, coming back late, letting myself be busy everytime, I am not ready for a relationship *get the hint*

when someone says he/she not ready for a relationship,
what they actually mean is that they are not prepared to go through the trauma of their past relationships again.
who would want to plunge right into the heartache of a lovely relationship gone wrong?
Who likes the pain?
not me.

Perhaps true love is only comes once in a lifetime.

2010-03-07T12:55:00.002+08:00

freaking lacking of assignments nowadays,

if i meet a cute jipun gal at hokkiado, can i bring her back? XD

2010-02-28T22:53:00.001+08:00

very well sync-ed

Matrix ping pong

and thai commercials are the best manz.

Funny Thai Commercial

2010-02-20T03:06:00.002+08:00

they always say Cancers are a creative bunch

2010-02-07T17:32:00.001+08:00

All this time I was wasting hoping you would come around
I’ve been giving out chances everytime and all you do is let me down
And its taking me this long but baby I figured you out
And you think it will be fine again but not this time around

You don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don’t want to hurt anymore

You're Not Sorry, Taylor Swift

2010-01-16T16:53:00.002+08:00

war is rich man's game

but is not you, is not your family, u nv knew

the unavoidable confusion and drudgery in life to inspire us when we are tired of the persecution by the righteousness

2010-01-09T15:31:00.002+08:00

so wads the big deal with smoking?

2009-12-27T16:36:00.003+08:00

i never get bored of this song

THANK YOU FOR PLAYING

and the piano score
wow-ed @bar 57 - 59

2009-12-25T16:34:00.004+08:00

We spend our whole lives worrying about the future, planning for the future, trying to predict the future, as if figuring it out will cushion the blow. But the future is always changing. The future is the home of our deepest fears and wildest hopes. But one thing is certain when it finally reveals itself. The future is never the way we imagined it. Isnt it?

2009-12-12T02:40:00.008+08:00

is tt, my memories, the only thing tt is alive?

well..

one way to know if you really like him

ask urself this

when u receives his msg, how do you feel?

is it like back then? if yes, then is love

go for it and trust ur heart. dont let bad experience ruin ur chance

2009-12-10T00:29:00.003+08:00

River flows in you, tt song really brings back very nice memories

2009-12-06T14:59:00.003+08:00

why everyone say i became very quiet? where gt? haha

POP in 2 days..

追蹤(踪)眼前人

I chose to be happy for the obvious...doesn't necessary mean I am happy btw

2009-11-29T15:12:00.003+08:00

hate hangover.. but who likes hangover?? LOLZ still need to book in later

kinda surprised i saw quite a number of ppl i knw at SJ, feels like a private party liddat

the impression i have didnt change much i guess..

2009-11-28T02:27:00.002+08:00

almost everything over..

left SOC, 16km route march, 24km route march and my POP

things gonna go downhill from here..

2 weeks from now.. 8 dec.. tts when =)

and i gonna wear the pair of boots that i been chionging with (combat boots) nt the one brand new one (parade boots) for my POP

true, it doesnt look as brand new as the parade boots but simply because i been through alot with it, mud, rain, dirt, alot

it should like POP wif me

kinda mad rite.. haha people just dont understand

2009-11-15T14:26:00.003+08:00

you cannnot choose when you want to love this person or that one. everything happened have a consequence and a reason and i'm not ready to give it up.

anyway field camp was kinda shit, damn suai rainy season, literally sleeping in my own dug out hole as my bed and mud acts as my blanket.. wad happened to my bolster?

but the combination of the fireflies flying high in the nite and wild boars singing lullaby to u, really really very magical lolz

2009-11-08T12:23:00.004+08:00

tell me whats wrong?

everywhere i see, i see bitches getting what they want

assholes doing shit

some gal whom i used to think was so innocently cute

guys telling me she getting laid,

guys telling me she got fingered in the middle of a club

wad a small world in tekong

but thats beyond the point..

forget it..

booking in for field camp for 6 days

camou for 6 days.. gonna have lots of pimples..

den situation test

den SOC

den IPPT

before i know it, i gonna POP

my 9 weeks BMT freaking compact sia

but i doubt it really differ much from the 13 weeks BMT anyway

really chionging shit hard and slacking hard together with buddies

memorable..

oh i wants to be an air steward..haha everyone is like "ok?" or "u can de la.." LOLZ

yup.. i would like to become one.

"dear passengers, on the left, u can see our beloved Sentosa, on the right, u can clouds" haha

2009-11-01T01:55:00.004+08:00

story:

is always the brain that says give it up but the heart that says have faith, you r the man

the places we went, brings back memories

being initiative towards the girl i like and always end up with the wrong ones

why do i feel this pain?

i not going to let fate decide

fate knows what i want? fate knows nothing~

i know what i want

anyway on a side note, the best qns on social interview today

*remove den*

alright i gt no balls to tell her that straight.. afterall we still on good terms, wait.. tink i told her that once? lolz

2009-10-18T01:39:00.002+08:00

booked out fri booking in tml (Sun)~

damn shag.. current bed time for jason = 1030hrs

>1030hrs = shag

so why the hell am i still blogging here.. lolz alrite. good nite.. until next week~

Click and watch this video haha..

Lasting a relationship is like making a good espresso, not less one bean nor more another bean

god.. more feng liao.. need to slp

2009-10-06T23:12:00.006+08:00

insanely nice manz..

Incredible Basketball Stunts

oh..

until then...

when i book out, this gonna be me.. thick eye brows, damn short + thick hair haha

Crayon shinchan..

like this!

bye~

2009-10-03T14:33:00.004+08:00

1.Closer

2.Bitter heart
then you come and tell me the same reason as you did yesterday
So tell me whats her name

kinda sad but meaningful song

3.Here we go again
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you is so addictive

4.Yesterday
You always used to stay
I should be thankful for everyday
Heaven knows what the future holds
Or at least how the story goes
but I never believed them 'til now

5.You belong with me
Dreaming about the day when you wake up
And find what you're looking for has been here the whole time

2009-09-30T23:22:00.002+08:00

NS is approaching.. haha

began running this morning to prepare for NS.. really good exercise to wake urself up. i will try to run everyday before i enlist

sth real funny happened, yup relatively bhb thou..

head down bukit batok meet Cara den went marina sq

shopped and we ate at Waruku

den gt this plump boy sitting near us, he pointed at us and said sth like "they are shuai and chio" in chinese.. lolz wad the hell.. the mother still asked us if we from magazine.. wanted to be funny but too late, cara answered faster than me.. lolz

wad a cutie tt boy.. *head became bigger*

ok i posted~ haha tts the climate, paid bill, slack at esplanade and home

2009-09-29T10:39:00.002+08:00

i want you to tell me is okay to love you

i want to tell you is okay to love me

i may never get to see you as often as i like, i may not get to hold you in my arms like before, but deep in my heart i truly know you are the one that i love and cant let go now

2009-09-28T00:19:00.002+08:00

i feel cheated, like seriously.....

take down tt mask.. is too big for ur face =)

oh well.. i am damn tired, didnt slp much this morning and out again... so pardon me

i know i am one of the pillows of yours... rite? why?

kinda stupid to ask why rite? oh well.. another one..

2009-09-25T01:24:00.000+08:00

FB's daily advice

Your Today's Advice is " Good things happen when you go for it. "

LOL!!! i really wish ar~

end

2009-09-20T22:37:00.004+08:00

F1 package tix - fri sat sun anyone?

as usual so like life..

when u wants to hire a cab, wait for this specific bus service, bring umbrella, caught something other than the one u targetted, u dun get it.. LOL

but when u dun wan to hire a cab, decided to take another bus service, dun feel like bringing umbrella out, dun even target..

ah ha.. diff story.. haha

screw u if u gonna tel me life is a game..

the guy who wrote books like "rules of the game" ought to shoot himself in the ass too.. really.. why describe relationship like as if it's a game? various tricks to get your soul mates heads over heels huh? i "love" you alot, dude~

wo ai ni XD

gal shouldnt make themselves so readily available to a guy, a guy will want you more if you are harder to get

gal shouldnt make the first move

One must try to hold the power to the relationship

haha logic? as long as i always have my loved one beside me, and i will try to do anything that makes her happy unconditonally, tts all XD

read?

2009-09-14T22:46:00.002+08:00

Loving someone so deeply and willing to do anything, everything for him/her

oh god, tts so mushy.. but is true finally.. =)

2009-09-13T21:50:00.002+08:00

lighten the mood ba~ haha

what i didnt eat that day, i managed to eat it the next time round.. haha damn shiok

2009-09-13T20:41:00.004+08:00

sadist long post of mine~

came across these..

women need to know that rape on holiday is a real threat

On the first night of their holiday in Rhodes, Anna and sarah went to have cocktails at a local bar. But their drinks had been spiked without their knowledge. Sarah went back to the hotel without finishing hers, but Anna was having a nice time dancing and said she'd follow shortly.

"Thats the last thing i remembered until i woke up on the beach at 4am with a man having sex with me, and another watching" says Anna. "I pushed him off me and ran down the beach and i have no memory of how i'd got there." We went to the police but they were neither interested nor sympathetic."

The number of British women being raped has risen in recent years and many women decided to put in behind them and get the hell out.

There were several minicabs outside the bar and i climbed into one

Kelly had been at a work party and then gone on to a bar with a group of colleagues. By this time she knew she'd had too much to drink and decided to head for home. "There were several minicabs outside the bar and i climbed into one. I was sitting in the front seat and must have fallen asleep because when we stopped at some traffic lights i woke up to find the driver had his hand on my knee. I pushed it away and told him to get lost. Then i dozed off again."

"When i woke up the next time, the car had stopped and the driver was on top of me. I was confused, panicked and realised he was raping me. When he climbed off i scrambled out of the car. As he drove away i realised i was only a couple of minutes away from my house."

There are men who pose as minicab drivers with aerials on their roof and false handsets. They wait outside busy nightstops and often call out, "Anyone called a cab?" or offered you a good fare. We've all been there - its late, we want to get home but it's a busy night and there is a shortage of transport. Of course it's tempting but don't do it. Why? Because the number of women being raped or sexually assulted by minicab drivers is increasing each year.

If you're calling a cab from a public place, ask for the driver's name and the make and colour of the car. When he arrives, check the details.

Always sit in the back of the cab. If you feel threatened, firmly ask the driver to stop - if possible in a busy place - and get out. Make sure you have your fare ready and your keys in your hand. If you live alone, make sure you've left a light on at home, so it doesnt look as though you're going into an empty house.

-when a woman protests that she does not want to have sex, both men and women tended to fault the woman if she did not resist at the beginning of the encounter.

-effective tactics to avoid date rape show that the woman should make clear early in the encounter that she is not interested in having sex. Other effective approaches were physical resistance, screaming and claiming to have a venereal disease. But the single most powerful

tactic of all was the statement, "This is rape and I'm calling the cops."

as much as i agree that some guys are ass-es, i dare say that not all rapists are males..

nice women don't say yes, and bad men don't listen to no

2009-09-06T23:07:00.002+08:00

my phone spoilt yesterday

today already repaired

early afternoon went to collect den head down AMK

whats best is dat all the files and such are still inside thou the odds of everything getting deleted was very high

i kinda optimistic rite? LOL so much for tt theory..

gotta iron my uniform for tml soon~

2009-09-05T13:46:00.001+08:00

no longer do i feel like a piece of shit anymore

i feel more like an idiot, but i guess,i know, i deserve it

2009-09-02T23:34:00.004+08:00

Sai's personality so funny la!! haha

this is a scene b4 he kena wacked by sakura

"Coming up with nicknames is so hard..." LOL

time to go iron my unifrom liao..

2009-09-01T23:39:00.003+08:00

a video entitled "signs"

tink it does reflects a fair bit about life..

greatly produced, no doubt a canne lion winner, well shdnt say much..

2009-08-31T00:11:00.003+08:00

SAY EXACTLY WHAT'S ON UR MIND AND DONT CHANGE IT!

1. You & your ex - was nice
2. What are you listening to – Michi~to you all
3. Maybe I should – sleep more often
5. I don't understand – chinese
6. I have lost my respect for – certain people
7. I last ate – fried bee hoon

IS YOUR/ARE YOU:
1. Is your hair wet? nopz
2. Is your cell phone right by you? – yup
3. Do you miss someone? – no ba
4. Are you wearing chap stick? – wads tt..
5. Are you tired? - a little
6. Are you wearing pajamas? – nopz
7. Are you mad? – nopz, i am jason

MORE QUESTIONS

1.Are you shy?
depends
2.Could things possibly get any better?
why nt?
3.Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
i wasnt even sleeping. haha
4.Has there been anyone particular on your mind at all today?
nt really
5.Do you ever crack your knuckles/ back/ ankles/ wrists/ etc?
why yes,always~ haha
6.Could you date someone taller than you?
yupz
7.Do you need to say anything to someone?
erm...dun tink so. haha
8.Honestly, does your crush like you back?
=/
9.Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
"think" is a very minor word
10.Do you wear glasses?
yo!
11.Lyrics from the song you're listening to?
starts wif "Just like always", ends with "Even just for now is fine"
12.Did you go outside for more than 30 minutes today?
yupz
13.Honestly, what's running through your mind?
this qns?
14.Have you ever asked a girl for advice?
of coz
15.Ever kissed under water?
nearly kissed a huge fish back in tioman thx to some random kid throwing bread into the water
16.When was the last time you were told you were cute?
cant remember
17.How late did you stay up last night?
night? 6 plus in the morning
18.Do you think boys truly understand girls?
do u like to eat char kway teow? see each individual lo
19.What is one word you seem to always misspell that you know you shouldn't?
dunno~
20.What was the last movie you watched?
"frightened until laugh" crap movie
21.Last song played more than three times?
dunno~
22.Last person to fall asleep with?
huh?
23.Ever skip class?
ever ever..
24.What color is your room?
sky blue
25.Who'd you have lunch with?
mum n bro
26.Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating?
yupz
27.Are you ticklish?
haha
28.Does your ex have a job?
will i fall for a useless person?
29.How many piercings do you have?
none
30.Do you want any tattoos?
nopz
31.Will you cry at your wedding?
when i get marry then you know
32.Are you wearing any clothes that don’t belong to you?
no?
33.What are your plans for the weekend?
go orchard HOT
34.You have to get a facial piercing, what do you get?
why?
35.Do you have a little sister?
nopz
36.Do you like Taylor Swift?
ok ar
37.Last time you were heart broken?
oh.. yupz
38.Do you sleep with the door open or closed?
closed
39.Have you ever dated a soccer player?
nopz
40.Do you hope your children are like you one day?
depends
41.Do you take walks often?
ya, working = walking
42.Needles aren't so horrible?
YA
43.Do you like meeting new people?
ok
44.Would you rather have long or short hair?
short?
45.Favorite book that was made into a movie?
dont have
46.Do you like tattoos and piercings?
not really
47.What would you do if the door bell rang and it was Lil' Wayne?
who are you?
48.Have you kissed somebody over 19 years of age?
yupz
49.What would you do if your best friend went out with your ex?
ok? haha
50.Green or gold?
gold
51.What’s your sport?
soccer
52.Do you know how to keep a conversation going?
i can
53.Do you like the rain?
depends
54.What hat would you rock?
rock wad hat sia..
55.Were you ever with someone who was completely different than you?
never exist, nt tt global
56.Have you ever had a crush on someone that was in a relationship?
nopz
57.When was the last time you were told you were beautiful?
beautifully imperfect? hahhaa
58.What is bothering you right now?
i want to shit.. really
59.I’ll bet you miss someone right now.
maybe? XD
60.Are you easily scared by horror/thriller films?
nopz
61.If you were given $100, would you spend it, or save it?
adidas jacket, here i come~ LOL j/k. see~
62.If there was a large spider in the room, would you stay?
yup
63.Do you have any enemies?
dunno~ but why nt?
64.Ever kissed a blonde haired, blue eyed person?
nopz
65.When was the last time you were truly happy with your life?
dunno~ diff
66.When is the last time you made someone else cry?
when i made someone cried
67.Would you be able to date someone who had a kid with someone else?
go out buy milk powder ar..
68.Last person you had a deep and meaningful conversation with?
cant remember
69.Does your ex miss you?
no? HEY THIS IS A SENSITIVE TOPIC!!
70.Reason behind why you last cried?
sad
71.Do you have a deep dark secret?
guess not tt deep and dark?
72.What was the last thing you ever got grounded for?
forgt
73.What was your childhood nickname?
dunno~
74.Are your parents married/separated/divorced?
marriED
75.What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
7th month.. hello? XD
76.Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours?
wad u mean?
77.Who do you blame for your mood today?
blame sai blame..
78.Have you ever seen a dead body?
yupz
79.Last person you went out to dinner with?
them
80.How do you vent your anger?
depends
81.Are most of your friends virgins?
does it matter?
82.Are you a mama’s child or a daddy’s child?
neither
83.Is anything alive in your room?
me

2009-08-26T00:03:00.002+08:00

bad things definitely will come to an end..

if nt how come rainbows exist? XD

the rainbow symbolises the promises of God btw

2009-08-25T01:06:00.002+08:00

Is not about moving on
Is never about moving on
It never ever existed in anyone's life
Never once it occurred
It is known as "moving along"
Is not about replacing
Is not about new or old
Is not all that negative
Is not all that positive either i know
Is shit, is hell, it kills
Is not about the recent, is seeing ahead
Is all rubbish, you just don't know anything!

You said u cared
You dont mean a single shit
You only want what you aimed for
You lied to me
You lead me on
You delicate songs, you say is all true
You told me craps
I believe you
We became closer
I told you friends is the limit
You insisted no
Time and time again, u came back strong
I told you something cant be replaced
You deemed as nonsense
You told me to consider you
I told you i plays around
You say you dun mind
I told you i am gay
You told me you love gay
And i told you to choose between one day of happiness with one week of disappointment and one day of disappointment with one week of laughter
You say i making things difficult
I think you are being stupid

WHAT YOU WANT FROM ME? I AM NO TEDDY BEAR NOR AM I SOME TROPHY

and yes, my mood was great awhile ago, till u came and ask me to consider again. You said your heart very pain but you just dunno real pain. You really dunno, i swear.

Like i said above, you just dont know anything. Stop lying to me, u making me feel worse. Maybe i should feel loved and contented that someone always message me cute messages after my work, before i sleep and such, but sorry, i dunno what to do.

hope i can wake up tml morning

2009-08-23T22:11:00.004+08:00

went Japanese Summer Festival 09 yesterday.. nt bad, didnt get the chance to rent a yukata to wear thou.

2009-08-19T22:53:00.005+08:00

I'm Not Okay - My Chemical Romance from the album "Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge".. though is been 5 years, i still tink this is one of their best songs..

2 more working days.. XD

2009-08-18T23:24:00.004+08:00

Never slept much last night, as expected from splitting headache, not forgetting the frequent urge of passing urine, thanks to the ice lemon tea i guess. Fell asleep on and off until morning time.

decided to loosen up a bit, do my own stuffs; going swimming alone, eating a whole junk alone, travelling alone, catch a movie alone and shopping alone, been a while since i did that... it doesn't harm you to do it once in awhile. some people might understand, some dont. Maybe I have let go of too many chances in the past. And i not emo-ing, may i add a "haha" to that.

as i was travelling on the bus, i saw this young boy, legs so thin, suffering from polio i guess. Beside him was his father, not very young either, maybe in his late fourties. the father was piggy-bagging him and his school bag. he was so exhausted that he sat down at the bus stop for quite awhile while kept smiling back at his son. Never complain ur legs are fat.

surprisingly by evening time, my headache subsides and just nice kaili asked me to go JB with her and sharon. Went in, bought a few things, cost quite a bomb, ate my all time favourite ayam goreng spicy mcD, wallet flattens yet didnt get all that i want, cant get that korean-like polo tee. But is ok, i going in next week again, if cant den...is ok ar.. XD

It's all a matter of choice. Holding too tight will only cause the sand to seep through your fingers, but I don't regret, i did what i think i should do, at least I have tried everything I could within my means and situation. When I'm done, I move on to another status. When I'm gone, I'm never coming back. Well, once in a while, I may come back to reminisce and nothing more.

2009-08-17T23:51:00.000+08:00

head pounding..

eyes feel like popping out of their sockets..

polydipsia..

and i drank 500mls of ice lemon tea..

time to head for bed......soon

oh, and go toilet before i hit the sack, i dun wan wet my bed after drinking so much diuretics...

2009-08-12T23:36:00.005+08:00

Nursing
-a career not measured in years but in moments

Nurses have the ability to make those around them worry..

everyone around me is falling sick.. and i having flu like symptoms, moreover i in A&E.

gonna PCR myself

been to too many isolation rooms liao.. -_-

2009-08-11T10:45:00.003+08:00

what i treasured in the past with stupid mentality doesnt mean i do not treasure it now

working spree starts tml again

2009-08-10T15:16:00.001+08:00

Dempsey's Ben and Jerry anyone? haha

2009-08-06T00:33:00.003+08:00

went back and ate @ Joaquim again today

tml is the start of working days again.. 2 working days den i off again ^_^

gonna on hold all the home assignments for now..

as usual, tml ttsh A&E again.. haha hope to lunch wif st again

tired~ maybe i walk too much today

pay pay faster come.. haha zzzz

2009-08-03T12:02:00.006+08:00

decided to not work this sat and sun..

expected, the fee i have to pay is discouraging. -_-

but one day can earn back liao, so worth it~ hee

when you choose to sacrifice what you wants to do, will your smile stays true?

dun you push the limit..you just a support pillar

anyway a simple arrangement like "dearly beloved" by Kaoru Wada and Yoko Shimomura can be soothing and nice after a day of work especially when it is so fast paced

and i saw the score too.. kinda nice

2009-08-02T23:17:00.005+08:00

Whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it and it will be yours -Mark 11:24

if i never interpret wrongly.. this is abit the wrong? HAHA i doubt is believe, is "psycho yourself that you have received it and it will be yours"

pardon me for being so ignorant and rebutt-ish..

maybe i dun haf enough faith?

what happen when you open ur eyes and see the reality?

can someone tell me the meaning of this quote from mark's?

if i never interpret wrongly..

and if is about the level of faith and trust to our father in heaven, he didnt give alot of things that many people ask for in prayer

enlighten me please..

just rebutt me, i want to know the answer

2009-08-02T01:33:00.001+08:00

damn full, cant slp.. XD

joke up ur day~

Ah Lek was asked to make a sentence using 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9,10.
Not only did he do it 1 to 10, he did it again from 10 back to 1.
This is what he came up with.....

1 day I go 2 climb a 3 outside a house to peep.
But the couple saw me, so I panic and 4 down.
The man rushed out and wanted to 5 with me.
I ran until I fell 6 and threw up.
So I go into 7-eleven and grabbed some 8 to throw at him.
Then I took a 9 and try to stab at him.
10 God he run away.
10 I put the 9 back and pay for the 8 and left 7-eleven.
Next day I called my boss and told him I was 6.
He said 5 , tomorrow also no need to come back 4 work.
He also asked me to go climb a 3 and jump down!
I don't understand.
I am so nice 2 him but I don't know what he 1.

2009-07-30T01:08:00.000+08:00

why is it that they both so similar?

the way they talks..

really reminds me of the past..

2009-07-29T23:55:00.003+08:00

alright manz..

looks like my assignments are mainly focusing on TTSH A&E now..

i dun earn much lesser becuz TTSH is footing the additional 7% charges. nt me..

7% of $210 is actually $14.70.

a few dollars lesser for not being in-charge, no relatives to breathe down ur neck during procedures and office hour like shifts, i dun mind.

change of environment for now.. uniform here we go again..

2009-07-28T23:09:00.003+08:00

didnt take up the job today.. need so rest, anyway today is sharon's birthday too~ LOL

was watching Naruto and realised tt Hanabi Hyuga's initial personality very cute haha sorta remind me of Nodoka

n..

what is a MEN when he/she cant pick himself/herself up after a fall? he/she just have to stand up and even stronger. i believe that this MAN will fall again. and den? this MAN will stand up even stronger again.

well.. i cleared all my doubts i had during that month, all of it. maybe this is wad ppl call knowing what you really want. i do.

lets see what the future lies~

2009-07-28T01:27:00.004+08:00

sometimes hopes arent meant to be held so high

i really cant bear to choose that path

but oh well.. know what is best for you

the chapter is closing soon ba..

is just isnt about fighting for what i want

more of i shdnt be doing much now

really hate myself that day

is nt really regret or stupidity.

just plain naive and wrong interpretation

thinking back, i just cant recognise myself back then, cant even understand why i think that way

sometimes the best advice u can give a person cant be used to advise yourself. haha~

i just have to force myself to do one last final thing

2009-07-25T15:00:00.003+08:00

i want to be the one to wipe away your tears and say i would never leave

really would, anything for that smile

2009-07-24T00:17:00.004+08:00

i didnt knw i am suppose to perform last office too.. HAHA

funny rule : "dun expect to ask for extra pay for doing last office, but if once you reach the house, the client is dead, you are suppose to collect $50. tts your transportation fee." LOL

passed by bedok, really brings back alot of memories. really alot.

2009-07-20T21:31:00.006+08:00

word of the day : "Diathermy"

dun u just love diathermy?

what is Amoxil?

-er.... forgt. anitibiotic? (correct)

what is Foradil?

-eh.. antibiotic? (wrong!!) -_-

how to prevent medication error?

-5 right? (NO! 7 rights) -_- wad is the last? i onli knw 5+R.route.

What is THR? 1 precaution.

-total hip replacement? (correct)
-knee cannot higher than hip lo..

How confident are you in setting a plug and drip successfully? How fast?

-80%? everything under 10 minutes (dunno 10 mins can bo.. LOL)

So if i ask you set one on a 3 years old child now, you able to confidently?

-no? (haha!)

You are BCLS certified rite? how to perform infant CPR?

-index+middle finger (_!_ test my memory)

Are you registered with the board?

-ya, wasted my $$

ok.. win liao~

2009-07-20T01:21:00.003+08:00

recently gt intro into playing gunbound again.. haha damn fun still.. my accounts still around.. but damn alot of new/hiong/GOD DAMN POWERFUL mobiles..

all cheaters.. LOL

2009-07-14T17:32:00.009+08:00

Toradora!'s storyline is more sad than Clannad imo..
maybe is just how the story goes and how storyline unfolds..

on a side note, i had enough of "the grass is greener on the other side"
wadeva grass is i choose de, who cares about the grass on the other side?
why nt u go the other side? i rather stay here because i like it here.. thx

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
and like wad i said, i will take a step back.
when it's time to let go, you should let go
such a simple logic i need to understand
sorry for so selfishly telling you wad i want to tell you
and yes, is u =)

2009-07-13T01:43:00.000+08:00

u lied..

2009-07-06T00:53:00.002+08:00

money burning damn fast.. LOL..

money earned that just LIE around, rather put 80% of it to good use

but of coz, saving > money used, tts why 20% kena "farmed" thou money can buy constant short-lived happiness

suddenly tot of st's mirror qns. really no one will buy the one with the scratches.. -_-

but u never know the rest of the mirror really gt scratches too ma? is like taking a chance..but high chance, really no ba.. since the first mirror's scratches really bad..

really nt worth it?

ok, wadeva~

zebra's hands~ LOL

same watch~!! haha

really damn unglam. LOL

2009-06-30T00:33:00.002+08:00

When a man wants to murder a tiger, it's called sport; when the tiger wants to murder him it's called ferocity. - George Bernard Shaw

carrying a gun gives u a right to be a person who uphold justice? haha~

2009-06-25T00:02:00.000+08:00

hmm ya, maybe i shd cut or dye my hair..

2009-06-23T22:29:00.014+08:00

copied from facebook quizzes..

You live with regret.

You live each and passing moment with regret burning in your heart. You think about the moments that you could relive.. you wish you said what you needed to say and you can't stop thinking.. not even for a second..

nt bad, 80% true.. haha

Where will you be 10 years from now?
result : Theme Parks

10 years from now.. you'll be seen in a theme park having a walk with your loved one! You enjoy living the life for the moment..You also love traveling! You always take things slow and calm! But beware, time passess by, you never know maybe later or tomorrow would be your last day and you'll regret the things you haven't done!

having a walk is romantic
love travelling..isnt it obvious?
slow and calm? hmm nt really
last setence, regret again? haha

why regret? haha regret have a rule that i am not eligible for~

ok, long post~ a quiz that i cant lie -_^

Are you ready?
er, ya?

Think back six months ago, were you single?
no

What do you carry with you at all times?
closest ans : handphone

When you say you don't care, do you mean it?
ya alot

How are you feeling?
weird

Is something wrong right now?
of coz, wrong and right

Are you mad at someone?
no

What's on your mind?
nth much..

Are you jealous of someone right now?
indeed i am

Do you have a piggy bank that's actually shaped like a pig?
no

Do you want to start overagain with someone?
only one, tts her

Do you know if anyone likes you?
i do. tts life.
ppl either likes me or hates me
tts sad~ haha

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
depends

What are you supposed to be doing right now?
going toilet

True love or 1 billion bucks?
i knw nuts about true love n i knw shit about 1 billion bucks, true love ba~ a billion bucks can buy happiness but not REAL happiness

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
ya, so? if u dun treasure sth, it might be gone forever..

Anything you would change about your life right now?
ya, afew things

You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?
a tattoo of a dragon on my back so do pull-up, the dragon's mouth can open and close.. LOL

Could you cry right now?
i guess i could

Do you ever think about stuff and start crying?
who doesnt?

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
dunno, see. dun wish to rub salt on sum1's wound

Are you okay with the life you live?
been walking for 21 yrs liao. life still goes on, walk like johnny walker.. haha

Last person you told a secret to?
why bother?

Do you like hugs?
nt bad~

Do you believe true love can conquer anything?
many things can, may it be positive or negative.. true love? i shall c. btw what is a definition of a true love?

When was the last time you cried?
nt long?

How much money did you spend today?
dunno~

What are you sitting on right now?
gluteus maximus.. wow.. jason do listen in class

Who's the last person you IM'd?
eileen?

What's something you really want right now, be honest.
reality and.. TO GO TOILET

How do you feel about your hair right now?
*back from toilet* black for a change.. haha

What did you do yesterday?
cleaning up the house for renovation

Would you forgive a friend for telling your biggest secret?
depends

Is there someone that makes you happy every time you speak with them?
ya, who doesnt?

When's the last time you said you were fine and you really weren't?
few days back

Is someone on your mind right now?
the "u like a stalker" someone lo.. haha

Who's birthday is coming up?
er? huiqi, gabrielle, wanqi? nt very good at remembering dates

Were you happy when you woke up?
tell me about it..

What is one emotion you are feeling right now?
shag + sleepy + sad (triple "ass") = weird

What's the last thing you ate?
MOS

Are you easy to get along with?
what does "1st person's view" sounds like?
maybe?

Ever cheated on someone?
guess nt

Who is the last person to send you a text?
tt kia who commented on the longness of my nose, kaili

What are you currently listening to?
Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade

2009-06-22T01:21:00.005+08:00

wow, look who's talking..

is all about me..

hee.. ok can~ no prob~

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It's getting way too deep

my life would suck without you - kelly clarkson

Being with you is so disfunctional
I really shouldn’t miss you, but I can’t let you go
You got a piece of me and honestly
My life would suck without you

suddenly feel like eating awfully chocolate's cake. HAHA

2009-06-19T12:20:00.011+08:00

June.. damn lively month..

n again. quite busy month so far..

sometimes u just dun open ur mouth, ppl tink u very free..

u gt a piece of shit in ur mouth..

i already said i gt better things to do these few days..

or rather, i did had until yesterday

June, damn lively month~

intending to change my blog song but stupid website bz.. nvm~

speaking of song, i went to look up the song call Insomnia.

didnt knw is that same "give-me-goose-bumps" song the radio kept broadcasting when i was working wif yman.. ok nice song, nw i knw the title le..

2009-06-17T01:36:00.003+08:00

nth much to talk about..

hi..

bye..

i didnt knw arun is gay~

besides that, Jason, wad a bai chi u are..

ok, being feng-ed

the thing about anime is that their level of japanese is exaggerated at times, if i gonna start a conversation or ask for direction in anime's language, i gonna get slap. ha~

ok, feng-ed again..

if it was not for the hopes, the heart will break..

ok, feng-ed again..

2009-06-10T00:14:00.011+08:00

feel like gg holiday..

$$..

Yunessun Spa Resort, Hakone, Japan

sian.. haha so ex.

"if a guy gets an erection when hugging a gal, most likely he doesn't love her. It's just lust and only out to get lucky"

haha wad sia? i tink is affection and reaction lo.. or maybe is the guy never hug b4? den he excited lo~ haha wu liao.. n nt all guys "steam" ba

2009-06-07T04:50:00.005+08:00

like wad kai li said, when u tink back about what the deceased said before she die, it just makes u feel like doing sth, going back..

everything just happened so sudden..

still gave tt "ya ya we r tgt" impression on the 2nd last day thou we wun tgt first from the start, just to make her happy and nt tink so much about her daughter, just for her to recover first, all the years, never had a chance to tell her tat we were just kidding years back.. NEVER~!!

u hid ur condition from ur significant ones, i told u i wun hide it from them, u agreed and said ok.. u laugh out loud but i knew u cried b4 we were chatting. that was day one, freaking day one..

all tt "hows ur studies", "hows ur studies", "nt bad", "nt bad", "good", "good", i beginning to miss them..

last year april 2nd, when i gt a gf, i really wanna share with u how it all happened, but instead i gave u a smile and told u life was just damn great, u tot is becuz my birthday is approaching.

all the while, i always telling u stuffs like how handworking my dad is, how much i just want to make him proud, just becuz i went normal academic stream and poly, the pros and cons to work in the service sector in spore, i really miss all those times..

this year during my birthday when we went out to eat, when u talked about how important a family is and becareful in tekong.. i wanted to tell u how much i screwed up a r/s, and i kept joking about me wanting to be a rich male TAI TAI and slack at home

life is so damn unfair tt u r taken away just liddat..

so fast, i haven even earn my 1st pay to treat u dinner yet like i said i would.

i just wish u shdnt left so fast,

it just feels like maybe losing a real mother

2009-06-04T23:53:00.001+08:00

really nth much to update la..

remember tt corn on my left foot?

it underwent treatment

the end~ hoho~

2009-05-31T23:42:00.005+08:00

Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot....NONO anyone will do.. as long as u are willing..

1. Do you have secrets?
why nt?

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl older than you?
have, had.

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love?
dunno, c, depends

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
pinch myself first

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
guess no~

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
more of being loved ba..

7.How do you define love?
the feeling that only both the individuals know

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
wish her all the best~

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
yup

10. What makes you sad?
when i am sad

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
ah pek

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
who else? YES, worth it.

13. What is being regarded as the most important thing in your life?
50% meaningful 50% reasons

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
single -->attached -->rich -->married

15.What is your favourite colour?
orleng

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, and both of them do the same, who would you pick?
i will pick their mothers. go die, tt nt love

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
depends, forgive is always the truth but forget is just a pack of lies.

18. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
alot.. *removed*

19. If there is a choice between lover and friends,which will you choose?
chosen before

20. Do you believe that there's "True Love"?
i dunno

n

2009-05-29T01:17:00.005+08:00

Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

2009-05-27T23:56:00.002+08:00

Swine flu hits Spore liao.. sianz..

and at ttsh summore, the hospital my grandma gg.

quiz..

A - Age: 21

B - Bed size: super single

C - Chore you hate: washing clothes and dishes

D - Dumbest subject ever: the one and only for me, chinese

E - Essential start your day item: brush teeths, MILO

F - Favorite color: orange

G - Gold or Silver: silver.

H - Height: 170cm

I - Instruments you play(ed): musical? recorder, euphonium, trombone, drums

J - Job title: nth much, slacker and agent nurse to be..

K - Kinesthetic, auditory or visual learner?: all ba, afterall i am human

L - Living arrangements: dunno~

M - Most awesome food ever: SAPS (primary school)'s char kway teow

N - Nicknames: dunno~ many~

O - Overnight hospital stay: kkh

P - Pet Peeve: occasional moments of spore's service industry

Q - Quote from a movie: "she has the best of both worlds, now she has to choose just one". nt really a quote from the Hannah Montana movie but the caption.. it sort of reflects on me when i saw it few days ago.

R - right or left-handed: right-handed

S - Siblings: 2 bros

T - Time you wake up: today 11am, tml 6.20am

U - Usual quote: dunno~

V - Vegetable you dislike: depend on cooking style

W - Why you run late: Keep snoozing the alarm

X - X-rays you've had: poly, mindef

Y - Yummy food you make: barbeque squids and fried rice, nth much~

Z - Zoo favorite: polar bears?

2009-05-22T14:19:00.001+08:00

is damn fuking sad to lose someone to cancer. damnit

2009-05-20T23:23:00.005+08:00

WARNING : RANDOM-NESS

too much mahjong session = ah pui~ haha

2009-05-19T02:43:00.002+08:00

A day without laughter is a day wasted~

suddenly felt very xin fu when i saw the heart =)

or maybe i shd feel weird -_-